Okay, I am really struggling with the meditation. I was able to use the guided meditation for 10 minutes and just as I got comfortable with that...we go into week 3 with 15 minutes of meditation. EEK! So, today I sat down to do it...pulled up a chair...told myself that I needed to really just stick it out. I closed my eyes, put my hands together as instructed in the guided meditation...and thought about my hands...they glowed, I thought about my fingers...and they are resting in my lap...what am I going to wear today? I haven't had breakfast yet...I am not sure I am going to have time to eat anything until Lunch. Wow, school starts in just another month or so...why is the dog nudging my hand...open your eyes and see, no, I can't, I have to stay here until the timer goes off. She is nudging me again...she normally doesn't do that. I will bet she has to go outside. Oh crap...if I lose this, I am not sure I am going to make it back...okay, I will let her out...I wonder how much time has gone by...oh look, its been 5 minutes. (and, she really did need to go out)
So...I will attempt this again tonight...tomorrow morning I am going to do it as SOON as I wake up. I have found that if I do it first thing in the morning...I am doing better.
The other thing about week 3 is the don't go for the sugar this week...so, Monday I managed to go to bed without any sweets. Today...I made it until after dinner...no sweets, but then I caved and had a chocolate covered marshmallow. But...several times I have thought about having things...a donut (okay I had a little bit), a milky way (I said no), I had grapes and applesauce for a snack...sweet but fruit! But..I also had hot chocolate...but that is my night time snack anyway. The important thing is to avoid the CRAVINGS that we don't need!!
1 comment:
I love your perseverence. I gave up meditation after doing it faithfully for 2 months.Did it twice a day..20 mins each.I miss doing it and I wana get back to it...especially after reading your blog.Thank You!
Post a Comment