STRUGGLING WITH WEIGHT LOSS

Okay...on April 14th I hit a 5% goal of 183 lbs...I left the meeting and ate two slices of pizza from Pizza Pipeline and a Pepsi. Then I thought my week would be okay. Well, my time of the month came and that makes me a little nuts when it comes to food. But, I have made it through weeks without incredible weight gain...so I kept thinking I will snap out of it. The week went from bad to worse...I couldn't get myself out of the hole (edible book contest, four cream cheese brownies...etc) and when I weighed in Tuesday April 21 I had gained 2 lbs. So, as I left the meeting I told myself, get back on track, don't eat crap, and it can come off this week. Well, I proceeded to have a whopper Jr with cheese and a blizzard from DQ (my first one of the season) and it was 75 degrees out, perfect ice cream weather. So...I get through Tuesday okay...but yesterday, I was doing sooooo good. Yes, I had a Reese cup...but all in all my food choices had been pretty good. But, in Economics class last night there was a discussion about pizza...and before i knew it I was ordering a small cheese pizza, the clerk gave me a free Pepsi and I was eating it...the WHOLE thing. UGH! Do you think I felt sick? Well, no I didn't...which was HORRIBLE. usually when I make poor food choices I get that sick feeling and I think I don't want to do this again! Well, I didn't get it. Well not right away anyway. This morning I felt a little off. But...I need to stop this madness! What is wrong with me? Normally I make bad decisions for a day and then I get back on track...well, I am struggling. I want to eat more. This totally sucks because I have 10 pounds to lose before I have hit goal...and I have struggled with this for a LONG time. My first 50 lbs came off in a year. It has taken me nearly a year to take off 14 lbs...and 4 of those lbs keep coming and going! UGH!! I need someone to smack me or something. Anyway, just wanted to share! Hopefully I can re coop and get back on track! I am walking BLOOMSDAY in a couple weeks...that should smack it out of me!