Monday, March 9, 2009

40 Days of Yoga...Reflections part 2

So, today was officially the last meeting...and we had a guided meditation. It was incredible. I guess it felt better because I had just completed a 60 minute yoga class...and that really seems to clear my mind! I feel stronger...even today. So...I will continue with some things that I think about based on the 6 weeks journey...

Week 4 Restoration -
What do I most need to let go of? What are things that I would be relieved to finally release? I think my past...things that happened in my past, to me, because of me...I think if I could once and for all let it go...I think it would really help. I also need to let go of things that I am not able to control...I do find myself very controlling and thinking if I could have done this different, the outcome would be different. I just need to let things be...and I would be a much more relaxed person!

Week 5 Centering -
How mindful am I of even the smallest details of my day? Oh my gosh...there are HUGE gaps in my day...the drive to work, walking in the grocery store, sitting on the couch, listening to someone talk to me...I am often there in body but do not remember or do not hear what is going on around me. This scares me! I am sure if I miss something, it could be a bad thing. I feel like I have difficulty being at one place or doing one thing at a time...and I really want to work more on this!

Week 6 Triumph -
I want to manifest...according to Merriam Webster online manifest means 1 : readily perceived by the senses and especially by the sight 2 : easily understood or recognized by the mind : So what do I want to manifest? Our final assignment was to write this sentence 4 times...and not censor ourselves and write about what we want to manifest, so...

I want to manifest a sense of calm, I want people around me to see me as calm, not excitable, and certainly not a force that comes it and stirs things up and then moves on. I want be calm, be able to call that calm feeling whenever and wherever I need it.

I want to manifest strength - not only physically but mentally and emotionally as well. I continue to amaze myself with the physical strength that is developing slowly but surely, but I also want to be mentally strong...increase my brain's capacity for memory and thoughts that are more purposeful rather than random.

I want to manifest presence...being present when I am doing something, doing that and only that before moving on to the next task or situation.

I want to manifest worth...being worthy of some time for myself, by myself that I can use to work on me, whether that be 5 minutes or 30 minutes.

This whole experience has been an eye opening one for me...I definitely want to keep up with doing yoga daily. I think it is realistic to do 30 minutes a day...and if I happen to add a class, I think that is even better. I also want to work more on the meditation. I think it has value and I just need to work past my issues with it. If I can just get in 5 minutes, I think this will help me!

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