Tuesday, March 31, 2009

New Year's Resolution - FAILED, okay, a setback

So, it is official, one of my New Year's Resolutions have failed. I had hoped to be at goal weight by today...March 31st. I am not. I have had a mixture of emotions as this day approached and I realized that it wasn't happening...first, defeat...then, acceptance...now, I am okay with it. Really okay with it. I did weigh in today...and I am officially less than 10 pounds away from my goal. I weighed in at 183...and my goal was 175. I am so close I can taste it. But...just when I think I am nearly there I do something to mess it up. Now, I would be happy to hit goal at my two year mark in May...but I need to accept that it is taking me longer to lose weight. I have to be so militant and I am not sure I can do that. I am eating better. I do work out...and I am trying to keep chocolate at bay...but I am definitely not perfect. Being in a WW meeting today I made this fact known to everyone there...the support was exactly what I needed. I weigh 63 lbs less than I used to...I have kept it off...every week I am losing a little...or maintaining...and even if I have a setback, I have come far. I need to be a little more patient with myself. I need to know my limits. And...as tempting as it was to go and eat myself into illness...I didn't. I did have some chocolate today...but I think I did a pretty good job of keeping it together!

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